My 2018 New Year’s Resolution has taught me I can be consistent and stay on track to reach my goals. This year, I’m giving myself an even bigger challenge. In fact, it’s a challenge I’m not 100% sure I can overcome.
I am an addict. I’ve always been prone do addiction, but have quit all addictive substances, and people, and relationships, and everything else we can, and tend to get addicted to, except for sugar. This year I realized, and truly accepted, that I am addicted to sugar, and that it’s making me sick. I am deliberately harming myself by consuming so much sugar (let me paint a picture – I eat from 150 – 250g of milk chocolate per day, and there’s other sweets, too). I feel like I’m only eating this much because I’m ‘not supposed to’ due to my chronic gastritis. Sugar really makes the heart burn so much worse, making my stomach flood with acid. I realize sugar is bad for my health, I understand it would be good for me to eat less of it. I want to eat less of it. SO WHY CAN’T I?
There are many studies on the ‘sugar addiction’ topic. I’ve read a lot, and frankly, I don’t know if I can form a firm opinion out of that. They all seem mostly speculation and wild guesses, and of course some of them also have real scientific physical proof backing them up, too. I decided to take everything I read into consideration, but I didn’t let it cloud my judgment. Instead, I carefully listened to my body, paying close attention to my reactions to sugar, and so I came to the conclusion I am addicted to it.
There are many forms of addiction, and mental ones can be just as hard to overcome as physical ones, and that’s why I don’t really care about any studies. I feel lost. Even thinking of quitting sugar makes my skin crawl. I hate the thought of it. And that is exactly why I NEED TO DO IT. I need to quit sugar to prove to myself I am stronger than sugar, to give myself confirmation I am still in charge. And if not, because right now I don’t feel in charge at all, to get back in charge! I’m doing this for me. I’m doing this because I love myself enough to take good care of my body and mind. I am doing this because I believe in myself, even if the challenge seems too big right now. I can do this, and I am going to. In 2019, I am quitting sugar.
Here’s my plan:
2. FRUIT AND HONEY IS OKI love fresh fruit, and honey is basically medicine. I feel good after eating it, energized and full, but not ‘sick’. I will definitely enjoy trading the things listed above for fresh yummies!
3. NOT RESTRICTING HIDDEN SUGARSI will still eat bread, pasta, and other carbs. I still want to be able to eat whatever I like, and eating wheat is also quite natural for humans (at the end of the day, wheat is the one thing homo sapiens has been eating since almost forever, and we were doing just fine), as long as it’s not processed too much. I will try to stick to whole wheat products, which will be easy for me because I prefer them anyway :D
I will share my progress monthly here on my blog, as well as on Instagram. I’m scared, but I need to at least try and give it my best. Quitting sugar will probably be one of the bigger challenges I’m going to face in my life. I can’t wait to dive right in!
So this is my one resolution, but I also have many aspirations and goals regarding my daily life:
-becoming more patient,
-practicing acceptance and mindfulness,
-expressing proper emotions at given moments (don't cry if you're angry, yell!),
-go on a one week vacation,
-even if you're mad, or in a bad mood, speak your mind, but always be kind,
and I plan on making loads of other small changes through the year.
Let me know if you want to join me. The more the merrier!