Wow how did you get this far?
I hope to be like you some day!
How did you beat your eating disorder?
Three questions I’ve been receiving the most lately. Winning my life back from an eating disorder wasn’t easy, and there’s no secret recipe or any general way to do that. We are all different, we re all unique, and we all have to figure out what works for us, not what worked for that other person, or how they made it.
We are all unique individuals, which means we process emotions differently. In the same situation one would feel anger, the other sadness. I am an apple. I cannot compare myself to a pear.
Dealing with (and figuring out) who you are is, or at least should be, your main concern. You will never be able to grow if you don’t know your roots. And I’m not talking about soul searching here, I think that’s a load of crap. You don’t need to find anything, your soul is right there in your body, and as long as you accept it for what it is you will be ok. But if you don’t, and you keep hiding your soul from yourself because you’re afraid you (or anyone else, for that matter) won’t like or accept it, you will probably feel miserable.
Accepting yourself means giving yourself room to grow. With your thoughts and actions you water your roots, and your heart is the flower that blooms in the end.
How did you get this far?
Never, not for one second did I try to please others. Everything I do is for me first. I understand that only if I truly, deeply love myself, only then I can love others in the same way. And love, kindness, and acceptance is all that matters after all. A flower cannot bloom in darkness, it will only open when it feels the light.
I kept pushing forward – falling flat on my face every third step, but at least I fell forward. Crying myself to sleep, but still waking up the next morning, getting up, and moving forward. Whatever happened to me, whatever broke me to the point I thought I could never pick up the pieces and put them back together again, I did it, and I kept moving forward. Even when I wanted to die I decided to hurt a little longer, and kept moving forward. ‘You can still kill yourself tomorrow’. That was my motto. That was what got me through the most horrifying times. And I did it, I kept moving forward, and I never gave up on myself. I owe this much to the little Nina still living inside of me, telling me she is proud, and I am ok.
I am ok.
I hope to be like you some day!
Well, I hope you are never like me. I hope nobody ever goes through so much pain. I do hope, on the other hand, you are like you some day! I hope you find the courage to accept all your imperfections, love all your flaws, and be kind to yourself.
The best piece of advice I can give you is to always be yourself. Don’t deny who you are, accept it, and grow. If you accept yourself, and you realize you don’t like some things, change is always good. But don’t change the things you hate just because you hate them, change because you love yourself enough to be the best version of yourself. Let the growth come from a place of love and calmness.
How did you beat your eating disorder?
I accepted it. I accepted it will always be part of me, and I stopped trying to ‘cast it out’ or ‘kill it’. Killing it would mean killing a part of me, and I don’t want that. I want to be me, all of me. I want to feel everything, the good and the bad, I want to learn, and grow. I am Nina. Yes, I am an anorexic, but I am also funny, honest, and loving. I am also a pilates instructor, a photographer, a wife. I am Nina, and I am me.
I learned to live with my disease, to control it, love it to the point it doesn’t hurt me in any way. I civilized anorexia, and now she can’t (and doesn’t want to) hurt me anymore. We get along, some days she is around more, but most days she stays in her garden and spends time with her flowers. We all need love. But what we don’t realize is we don’t need love from others, we need love from ourselves.
All you have to do is stay true to yourself, and everything else will fall in place.
It's the season of 'sorry I can't, I'm lying in bed with a fever', I've decided to share a immune boosting calorie bomb smoothie recipe with you! I'm always kind of almost getting sick (you know that feeling when you know you need to rest, but you also need to pay the rent so you work anyway), and I keep my immune system up with yummy smoothies.
Food can be amazing medicine, if you know what you're doing! Stuffing your face with junkfood won't do the trick. The occasional burek is of course very welcome, but keep in mind that you have to EAT. YOUR. GREENS. Well, or drink them, for that matter. Ingesting healthy fats, fibre, protein, and vitamins & minerals (all in a caloric balance) is crucial to maintain a strong immune system.
A smoothie a day keeps the doctor away. Or you could go to bloat town. Depends on what you put in your smoothie :D
The one I had for breakfast today can be a bloater if you have too much of it, though! So make sure to follow the quantities. Only fruit & no veggies isn't the best option. But today I really craved a super sweet, fruity smoothie, and I really felt like I needed the vitamins (and ginger. mostly I needed ginger.) I was feeling like I could be catching the flu or a cold, so I decided it was time for a head-first dive into this anti-inflammatoy immune boosting smoothie.
½ tsp cinnamon
1 tsp honey
1 tsp turmeric
ginger root (to taste, A LOT)
& FOR THE TOPPINGS:
1 (big) tbsp peanut butter
Talk soon, have a beautiful evening!
I'm finally posting this homemade peanut butter recipe! As a result of my NY resolution (quitting sugar) I needed to start making PB at home, since most of the store-bought ones contain added sugar. So. After thorough research I concluded that:
1. the consistency of the butter depends on the peanuts
2. roasting peanuts at home is the best option
3. a lot of salt loves a lot of honey
After a couple of attempts I realized it is almost impossible to create the same consistency twice (even if you're using the same peanuts!), so it's best to gradually add as much oil as you need to get the consistency you like. I prefer a more 'runny', creamy texture, so I added more oil and honey. Here's how I made my last batch (and the best so far):
Let me know in the comments if you decide to try it out!
I really wanted to post a video on my YouTube channel today, but since I've been sick for almost a week now I haven't managed to film it. I think I got sick mainly because I quit sugar, and it was a big shock for my body. Now I see even more how much damage sugar did. You don't get sick if you quit broccoli now, do you? Jokes aside, I haven't been so sick in over three years, so there's no doubt sugar plays a big role in my flue-like symptoms now. I'll be super grateful if someone who's had the same or similar experience would share how they coped in this situation! Anyway, I've been good, and in spite of not feeling well, cooked a lot. I shared this bowl on my story last week and a lot of you guys asked for the recipe. Nothing difficult, here's how I put it together:
-I hard-boiled 2eggs,
-cooked some black rice
-roasted 1/2 zucchini on olive oil,
-steamed some broccoli,
-and roasted chickpeas on olive oil seasoned with turmeric.
The 'dressing' is
-1tbsp olive oil,
-a squeeze of lemon juice,
-salt, and pepper.
I hope to be up & about soon, so I can shoot some outfits and vlog a bit again!! And most importantly, go to the gym and teach pilates, I miss that so much!
Have a lovely evening guys!
So today's breakfast was so super yummy I have to share it with you asap. Yesterday evening I got a terrible craving for something sweet, and since I quit rafined sugar I had to figure something else out. So I put together this amazing banana bread recipe. Not to brag, but I think it really is the best one I ever made :D
Anyway, I hope you try it out! Here's how:
I topped it with peanut butter and honey or jam, coconut chips, various seeds, and some fresh mango. But I'm sure it works just as well with anything else (cream cheese, chocolate spread, greek yogurt, other fresh fruit,..).
And voila, that's it!